Thursday, November 10, 2011

What we've been up to so far

It has already been a couple of months in Finland now, but it feels like I am here since ages. When I state 'I am getting familiar with Finn weather', I think it's too early to say that. I was happy not to suffer cough & cold ( I really hate it!) ‘coz when I arrived here almost everyone in my class had flue, one after another, and we had named it DSS-Flue! Gosh! I was  unaware of my immune system till now... lol


Now the highways, sub-ways and every routes of Jarvenpaa are clearly set in geographical space of my mind. When Kanchan and I go for jogging we enjoy beautiful dusk as long as we can. We run alongside the lake, farms, woods and railway stations. Unfortunately, the weight machine has yet not shown any remarkable changes in kgs/lbs :))


These days  we are busy bees. We hardly get time to sit together in our common kitchen and talk about our diurnal activities. Life is treating hard and tough, so far. Of course, we had not expected that it would be a cakewalk, 'lesser the expectation slighter the pain'. 


Ranita a.k.a Nirupa Roy has many complains. She thinks she is the only person on Earth with all the miseries and, while trying to confront her, I feel like I am the wisest person on this planet who is here to distribute wisdom LOL. As it is said 'everything successful you do in your life depends on the people you align around you, sometime listening to your heart is crucial.' Hummm...Who agrees?


We have funny Jessica who never gets tired turning every situation humorous, and our apartment becomes a Cinema hall that has comedy movie on. Kanchan & I have discovered a new promising chefs in us.  We cook weekend feast or say it a family dinner/lunch...Yummy! How about opening a Restaura in Finland?
The smell of the Asian spices, fragrance of incense and the loud music playing on youtube make us nostalgic. 


Jokes apart, we’re social services students i.e. future Social Workers. Our Social Welfare and Policy class, if I want to be politically correct I should say - 'Social Welfare and Policies of Finland or sometime EU', says a lot about the  benefits and welfare that Finn government provides to its citizens. Everything is so WHOA! Yeah, the taxation is there, but it is worth paying  after all 'There’s no such thing like free lunch'- that’s what our lecturer Dennis always says. TRUE!! For third world country where we come from these kinds of facilities provided by state is nothing more than New Year’s resolution, you make it and you forget it. 
And what surprise us is, despite the supports and facilities government is providing here,  MALE suicidal rate in Finland is high. For some years this country was even on the top list of male suicidal rate. As far as we have observed, in comparison to Finn women, men are not very open and expressive, and when the emotions or feelings remain within themselves people get frustrated, lonely and isolated. #Observation


We're from the country where people never forget to put a beautiful smile on their face no matter what, but here most of the time you see people whose smile has been buried in the snow or frozen like lakes in winter. We've also met some middle age Finns who were so rude to us for no specific reason ( Use the right vocabularies for God sake! Please don't make us feel we're in foreign land, respect humanity)


Last week, we went clubbing. We really needed some fun to refresh our mind. We had to keep Ranita awake till 2230hrs 'coz either she goes to bed early or spends whole night on Skype. We wanted her to come with us 'coz it was a new experience for her. She thought that it would be awkward as she can’t dance (she thinks). Well, she surprised us when she effortlessly copied every steps we taught her on the dance floor. It was really a fun night until Kanchan and Ranita bumped into this lean & thin Indian guy. First Indian we have met here by the way! He tried to present himself like Mr. hottie having all the females following. Gimme a break dude! I am sure he realized where he stands when Kanchan told him GET LOST! 


Then again, there was this drunk old Finn woman in the rest room, I'm sure she must have been going through midlife crises, the way she behaved with us was intolerable. Thank God we didn't loose our temper, she was so annoying. In spite of everything, it was a fun till we realized that our legs were hurting the other day.


The busy week days, the assignment pressure, stressful group works and rejuvenating field visits are helping us to deduct days from months & years to go back to Nepal. So many things to do.......


At the end of day when you come back home tired and cook for yourself, you miss those days when mom cooked your favourite dish; when you feel cultural indifference and make you feel sad, you miss your friends with whom you can talk/share whatever you like, and when you hear about the progressive reports of other countries you wonder when would your country be a part of these examples. 


XOXO
Jo_tee

Saturday, October 1, 2011

In love with Finland

A month old in Finland, and I am getting used to with Finn weather now. Everyone says the frustrating days are yet to come, when snow fall starts from November till end of April, when this beautiful sites would change into white curtains of snow and the sun would get bored to come out every day.


I don't know, neither could I imagine how it would be like, but I am so waiting to twirl around those white curtains and play hide-and-seek with the lazy Sun. That's life!!


A city girl landed in country side, the aroma of nature, the warmth of people around and the fountain of knowledge will definitely keep me safe and warm throughout the years.


Let's see what's in store for me ....


XOXO
Jo_tee






Sunday, August 28, 2011

Some research and reports


........And we rode through the gravel road towards Southern-West VDCs of Morang district to do a research for my second assignment. After working continuously (in my office) for 25 days in a row, the ride was quite challenging enough to bring pain on my back (suffering from backache now). The only thing injected enthusiasm in me was the early morning breeze; the lushly green paddy fields looked awesome under the blue sky after last night rain.


We headed towards villages 24-26 km away from sub-metropolitan city Biratnagar. Those small villages are home to approximately 7000 people. Majority of people out there are Muslims, Musahar and other backward communities. We were a kind of skeptic to visit those villages as there were media reports about a killing of an innocent villager by Nepal Police few days back at the same place. But, as soon as we reached the place, we were relieved to see things getting back to normalcy. Sometimes media makes unnecessary fuss; the exaggeration to sell their newspapers invokes thousand questions in people’s mind.

I was really touched to meet a group of youths who run an NGO there that helps to raise social awareness to promote child rights and empowers the communities. The NGO named Rural Society Development Center ((RSDC) is supported by PLAN Nepal. The remarkable changes they've brought in their community over some years are really appreciating. As they briefed us about their NGO, the activities they have been carrying out and their progress is outstanding, but they still feel like they have a long way to go. It is indeed an applauding effort to work for the progress of your own community, the place where you are born and have been brought up. If you really want to do something for others, why not to start from your own surroundings.

On our way, we talked about the situation these villages are facing, how a superb government plan cannot actually materialize due to inefficient and corrupt systems and the changes that at least some NGOs have brought in this part of the country.

Well, it has been super busy days since July, but I'm glad my thoughts are being occupied and my anxious mind is diverted- "all the hardship a person had to face none was more punishing than the simple act of waiting". 

I extend my sincere gratitude to @Shiva dai of PLAN Nepal, @Ansari dai of RSDC and @Binod Pokharel dai of Maiti Nepal Transit Home(for my first assignment) for your valuable time and helping me with necessary information. And, thank you very much @Deepak dai of UN-IRP and @Gopal bhai of UN-DSS for you great support.

XOXO
Jo_tee






Tea Talk- Chai/Chiya




Girls Education is no more a Social Issue 











Saturday, June 18, 2011

Urgent Appeal for Tin's Surgery

Yes!! You can make the difference and it doesn't take much. Every morning when you wake up, you will breathe with satisfaction that you have done something significant; not just for your relief and satisfaction, let's do it this for someone else' life. 


Yes, it doesn't take much, but it definitely will be too late if you just give away this opportunity. Let's be meaningful !


 Click the link below to read about Tin and please donate....


Urgent Appeal for Tin's Surgery


Thank you all. 



XOXO
Jo_tee


Irresistible Italy

It's time to say Good Bye Italy.


These have been really fantastic weeks. From people to place to food, Oh Italy! I am in love with you, I don't wanna leave you. Embrace me in your arms, hide me in your eyes or crave me in your heart, please don't let me go. 


Well, I have to land back to the reality. I can't live in the world of poetry forever. Responsibilities awaits. I can't wait to go back home and work on my new project. 

I know I will come back here again one day. Maybe to rejoice my accomplishment!  
Time to say Goodnight World. I have to wake up early tomorrow to catch a flight to Amsterdam. 




XOXO
Jo_tee



Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Under the Tuscan Sun

It has really been an amazing week in Tuscany with all 14 beautiful participants– our "Be The Change Family".

We have come from different countries but with one thing in common; our dream and objective “To Help”. Stories of everyone, their journey of life, experiences they have gone through so far and their passion to help, are really motivating. I feel fortunate to be here, sharing my experiences and learning new things. I won't say with my experience in BTC I can bring a revolution in my society or change the world overnight, but I’ll surely make the first step to bring the change. If I could be an example how a small effort can really make big changes, I could motivate many others to do same. I don't have words to express my gratitude to Global Volunteer Network for this wonderful opportunity. 

Last day of BTC program; we were touched by everyone’s last speech, the farewell note had emotion, excitement as well as a sweet tragedy that the ‘Be the Change family’ is now gonna part. Who says, a week or two is not enough to know a person, you don't need a long time or don't have to come from same culture/background, every little thing you share with each other brings you together. Most of us (of course including me) shed some tears of love and gratitude that expressed how glad we were to be here to meet each other. It's just the way you are!

With tons of love, best wishes and a strong determination to be the CHANGE, I’m sleeping the last night in my cozy bed in this gorgeous Villa. 

I’ve to wake up early tomorrow to catch a train to Venice.

Grazie Mille Tuscany! Bounanotte. 


"Be the change you wish to see in the world"- Gandhi

XOXO
Jo_tee
La Chiara di  Purmanio Villa

Monday, June 13, 2011

Lost and Found

I'm having a marvelous and a great time with #GVN "Be The Change" family. 

So far the days are full of fun and information; the workshops, interaction programs, storytelling/experiences and everything; it's been an amazing. On Saturday, we all went to explore Florence and it was awesome. In Florence, we split into groups and decided to meet at Rendezvous point for dinner later. Julie, Colin, Angharad and I made one group (Julie and  Ahamad are the most rocking ppl in this group). First, we went to a cathedral 'coz Angharad and I had to light candles. The cathedral was majestically beautiful. Then, we found a place to sit and sip glasses of wine.
Sexy Florence, Fashionable Florence! All the top brands; D & G, Bvlgari, LV, GUCCI, Prada, Zara Oh my Lord! I felt like I'm actually walking through the pages of Vogue magazine. Every corner of the city is full of eye-catching stuff and fashionistas.

Well, eventually we lost the groups and four of us ended up dinning in a restaurant at the other corner of the city. And, we gave a name to our group "Lost and Found", as we were supposedly lost and knew we're gonna find them again. We also got a bracelet for our group that was offered for free by a roadside vendor. After the dinner, thankfully we did manage to find our lost mates. Time to return Tuscany! Some stayed back for a while to explore night life of Florence, while few of us returned to Tuscany. 

Sunday was even more enthusiastic day for me 'coz Colin discussed about online marketing. Everything about computers and internet rejuvenate me. I am a techno savvy!


Today is Monday and it's time to head to SIENA after breakfast. Ciao!


XOXO
Jo_tee




Thursday, June 9, 2011

Eat Pray Love...all in Italy

I arrived in Florence yesterday after 14 hours of flight and exhausting long transit hours in New Delhi andAmsterdam . It was kinda’ hectic to reach Plus Florence Hostel where I had my reservation. It was drizzling; dragging my luggage all the way, I was not sure if I was heading towards the right direction, though I had researched well enough on the internet. The only part I was paying full attention to was, I had to take the road next to McDonalds and keep walking straight.

Found out the place; it was a bit crowded as it’s meant for backpackers and I could see all the youngsters probably in their early twenties. Suddenly, I realized my stomach growling, demanding a heavy lunch and I even hadn’t had my dinner  last night. I was freaking tired during my flight from New Delhi to Amsterdam and couldn’t wake up for the late night dinner on the flight.

So, I thought to go out and explore Florence for a while, eat something and get back to bed as early as I can. I was dying to get a good night sleep, 14hours flight!! zzzzzzzzzz
Oh! I must say… FIRENZE ( Florence ) is beautiful!!

This morning GVN sent a car to pick us up from the hostel. I later knew there was one more participant to the program who was staying in the same hostel. Ghosh! the funniest part was we were sitting next to each other at the lobby and we didn’t know that both of us were waiting for the same car. 

We drove towards Tuscany approx 45 Kilometers from Florence where we’re gonna stay for this whole week. I was captivated by the breathtaking view all along the way. It was like in a movie; the vineyard, castles, churches and olive trees…amazing! I wish I were a millionaire, I could have own a property here. 

We reached La Chiara Di Prumiano, our final point. oh! I don’t have words to describe the beauty of this villa. The villa owner #Antanio said that it’s four hundred and eleven years old…OMG!

 We met GVN people and everyone was so welcoming. After taking a short walk around the farm, we had a great Italian lunch. Olives, cheese and olive oil, it’s a real treat!!!


XOXO
Jo_tee

Monday, June 6, 2011

To Italy

Tomorrow, I’m flying to Italy via Amsterdam for two weeks to participate in ‘Be The Change’ program being organized by Global Volunteer Network, an INGO based in New Zealand .  The program being held in Tuscany , aims to train individuals how to become change agents in communities around the world. Wow!

Feb 2011, Global Volunteer Network gave me a wonderful opportunity to volunteer for a month in Da Nang of Vietnam on Children’s program, and it was the most rewarding experience I ever had. Everyday I used to wake up with a smile on my face, a meaningful reason and an inspiration. With that, I realized I have so much to give away and one-month is quite not enough. I hope to continue volunteering, this time in Nepal or India , after all charity begins at home. I am not presenting myself as a social activist (wearing cotton saree and carrying a classic handloom bag) nor am I trying to change the world overnight, I’m just making a small effort to make some difference, it’s a way I chose to give back what I have gained. Just do it !

I love traveling and the best part I like about traveling is that I don’t miss home when I travel; I always find a home far from home. So far I have been a real lucky, every people I have met are wonderful, welcoming and supportive. I’m hoping the same in Italy. Oh! I love Italian food and the language, especially the gestures they make while speaking.

I’m super excited. 

Buonanotte

XOXO
Jo_tee

Sunday, May 29, 2011

New group on the Block

I am so delighted to receive a number of emails almost everyday by our Women Blogger group and glad to see followers rising on my twitter account.

This is indeed a great idea to connect with powerful women from different corners who have been sharing their ideas and knowledge to make this world better place to live and help us visualize looking for valuable suggestions for social innovations and developments. Great job @Janna!

We are the participants of Women Bloggers Delivery competition for ‘Carbon For Water Campaign’. Congratulations to the winners, who are now traveling around Kenya and keeping us updated.

I am very pleased to know these ladies and be a part of the group. I really appreciate @Abby’s concept to create a spreadsheet where we all have put in our details, and how wonderful it is to get familiar with each other in just a simple click.

This is  simple yet powerful step, and with more innovative concepts like these, I believe, women being entangled in social norms and values forbidding them to speak up for their rights, deprived of education and opportunities, will soon be a history.

KUDOS to everyone in the group. This is what I say SOLIDARITY!



XOXO
Jo_tee

Thursday, May 19, 2011

Everything happens for a REASON !

I could't fall asleep last night due to cold, in spite of gulping in the most powerful medicine available :-(  Though, this medicine induces sleep, I became a lil’ exceptional case as running nose and kinda sore throat kept me up till late.

Television offered its company to kill the time, but did not feel like watching TV; in fact I’m not a television person unless there’s some interesting like- reality shows, good movies or sports. Well, if I have to caste a vote for my favourite channels, I would choose #TLC & #Discovery. But last night none of those helped me to spend my time, I was dead bored flipping through channels.

Suddenly, I heard wind blowing & a thunder shower..WHOA!! it started to rain heavily again. It has been raining here since three days. My folks are complaining about the weather but I’m enjoying pre-monsoon. Cool weather & less power outage. It’s fantastic!!

Then, the only thing I needed was, something I can’t imagine my life without, “Internet” :-) Well, I can live without television and a cell phone, but if there's no access to internet, life hardly exists. I feel completely disconnected without it.

Multi-tasking has always been my attribute as a computer user, I thought to write as well as chat with friends on Skype/MSN. So, it was nature, me and my memories that were helping my finger tips dance on the keyboard. The ‘tip tap tip tap’ sounds of rain and wind striking on my window panes added some special effects to draw upon the beautiful memories that were revisiting my mind.

Back to back; glorious days, family functions, smile and enjoyment. Frustrating days, anxious moments and tough times, and I feel so proud of myself thinking of all those, but I've managed to stand tall and brave. Not flattering to myself!

And, when you’re going through bad time everyone just tries to console you with some true or hypothetical encouraging stories with one and only ‘moral of the story’- “Everything happens for a reason”. But this judgment really doesn't bring any relief at such moments, well if everything happens for a reason, I would say, I’m trying freaking hard to find that stubborn REASON.

I feel like blessed, this year has been a great year so far, full of rewarding opportunities. So glad that I got to meet and befriend such a lovely people from different countries, got a chance to see life so closely and eventually encouraged me to do something significant and worthy.
Progress was just a “Fairy tale word” that I read about, and now this is the time I’m really experiencing the high it brings.

Perhaps, these are actually the under wrapped REASONS for everything that happened. The reasons unfold now like flower petals…Beautiful!!

Now, I also witness that “Everything really happens for a reason”, I love to add, “don’t lose your hope and never quit”. And like my brother says- this is just a beginning and we’ve yet many miles to walk.
Yep! miles to go, destination is set, pitfalls might be on my way, but I’ll surely grab every good reasons stored in.

Halleluiah! I’m counting the days on my finger tips now..my upcoming trip..I’m super excited as it’s one of my dream countries to visit and am pretty sure it’s indeed every girl’s dreamland, if you believe in love and romance..Whoops Goosebumps!!

But that’s not only the reason behind my excitement and enthusiasm; the most important one is, I’ll be meeting all the people who actually made my dream come true. I’m so looking forward to learn a lot from them and get back with bag full of memories, knowledge and skills. Let’s see if I would be able to bring them all in my bag, provided the baggage limit is 23kg, or may be I have to charter a cargo to carry them..well definitely not!! lol

18 Days to go…….


“Never regret something that once made you smile”


XOXO
Jo_tee

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Flesh trade in Nepal- Picture of inhumanity

 “Real men don’t buy & sell girls. Real men love, care for and protect girls.”

This sentence has been quoted by Hollywood actress #Demi Moore during her recent trip to Nepal to work on CNN’s Freedom Project. Ms. Moore & her beau #Ashton Kutcher have recently launched their own foundation to address and combat the issue of child sex trafficking.

Well, I am not blogging about the Celebs or to appreciate their work here. As my blog has now hit 1000 previews from across the continents, I just decided to bring some social concerns in front of everyone. This is just my small effort to enlighten people from every corner of the World to raise their voice against human trafficking, and I am sure this is not the issue of my country alone.

#Maiti Nepal is a NGO based in KathmanduNepal that was established in 1993 to protect Nepali girls and women from domestic violence, trafficking for flesh trade, child prostitution, child labor and various forms of exploitation and torture. #Ms. Anuradha Koirala, the chairperson of Maiti Nepal has been voted as CNN hero of the year 2010 by people worldwide in an online poll that ran for eight weeks on CNN.com. (I would love to work with Maiti Nepal someday !)

I am doing some research on the internet about human trafficking in Nepal (though it’s not a part of my course of study as of now), I am really surprised to come across some awful facts-

NGOs estimate that 10,000 to 15,000 Nepali women and girls are trafficked to India annually, while 7,500 children are trafficked domestically for commercial sexual exploitation. In many cases, relatives or acquaintances facilitated the trafficking of women and young girls into sexual exploitation. Women and girls are also trafficked to other Asian destinations, including Malaysia, Hong Kong, and South Korea for commercial sexual exploitation and forced labor. Also, NGOs report that some police, border guards, and other officials routinely accept bribes to turn a blind eye to activities of traffickers. Many dance bars, “cabin restaurants,” and massage parlours in Kathmandu that facilitate sex trafficking are reportedly co-owned by senior police and army officials.(courtesy: various sites)

Human Trafficking and Transportation (Control) Act, 2064 considers an act as Human Trafficking and Transportation, if anyone sells or buys a person for any purpose, forces someone into prostitution, with or without pay removes human organs except otherwise determined by law.

So here is an Act declared in our law to protect against this and to raise the issue on court.
But, I wonder how many cases have been filed so far and how many people have received justice. The main two causes for these increasing criminal activities, I think, are unemployment & lack of  proper education. Had there not been those problems, majority of people might not have opted for alternatives like; risking their life for jobs in foreign land, or women might not have chosen to work in night clubs or dance bars.

My question here, who is responsible for these outrageous crimes? Should the blame completely be thrown on our paralyzed government or the political instability? Or on those who has lifted up their living standard overnight by virtue of being involved in this flesh trade? Or on parents who completely trust those frauds & send their children abroad for work? Or the victims themselves who are less conscious about what is happening?
Also, if we are now trying to stop these social discrepancies, do we have any alternatives for those who, by now, are completely dependent on this profession to earn breads & butter for their family?

Above all, I think, there has to be stringent laws to curtail any sort of crimes against women and children. Not only they should be protected, Government should also empower women who have suffered through this. 

Women in Nepal need someone to help and encourage them to come out from their discouraging social boundaries and speak up for themselves.

But most importantly, this is our responsibility to bring a change in our society. Yes, we have voted our leaders to bring this change, but when they are quiet pathetic to impart their duties, we should not wait for them to wake ourselves up! It’s time to speak up! Let’s not wait till anyone from our own family becomes a victim, let’s not wait for anyone to bring a change……This is our problem and we need to put on our every little effort that we can make, after all, “every small effort brings big changes”.

(Watch #Nepal's Stolen Children on CNN or Youtube)



                                                                                                            
                                                                                                          -Paulette Kelly  

“I Got Flowers Today…”  


I got flowers today. 
It wasn't my birthday or any other special day. 

We had our first argument last night, 
and he said a lot of cruel things that really hurt me. 
I know he is sorry and didn’t mean the things he said. 
Because he sent me flowers today. 

I got flowers today.
It wasn't our anniversary 
or any other special day. 

Last night, he threw me into a wall 
and started to choke me. 
It seemed like a nightmare. 
I couldn't believe it was real. 
I woke up this morning sore and bruised all over. 
I know he must be sorry. 
Because he sent me flowers today. 

I got flowers today, 
And it wasn't Mother's Day or any other special day. 
Last night, he beat me up again. 
And it was much worse than all the other times. 
If I leave him, what will I do? 
How will I take care of my kids? 
What about money? 
I'm afraid of him and scared to leave. 
But I know he must be sorry. 
Because he sent me flowers today. 

I got flowers today. 
Today was a very special day. 
It was the day of my funeral. 
Last night, he finally killed me. 
He beat me to death. 
If only I had gathered enough courage 
and strength to leave him, 
I would not have gotten flowers...today!







XOXO
Jo_tee

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Happy New Year 2068 B.S (14th April 2011)

Last night, I was skype-ing with my best friend “Sanju” & I didn’t realize we video chatted till four in the morning (Nepali Time), but it was just 4 PM at her end (in Texas). The sleepless night made me feel drowsy & dizzy at work today.

We talked about our Uni days(all healthy gossips), classmates, families & my recent trips.  Those carefree days and the giggles! We didn’t feel for a second that we were actually in two different continents, in different time zones. Technology makes it easier to stay in touch wherever you are. 

The main topic of our discussion was “Jyoti! settle down now”. Every time we meet or talk online, she has to say, “It’s high time for you to select someone (yeah, she doesn’t say FIND) & settle down”. She has a strong reason (that she thinks)- “all our friends are married & have kids now. So you also have to think about it seriously”. As always, I try convincing her, “Though I appear to be with “the one who is kinda’ Mr. Right NOW”, but still, I’m waiting for my Mr. Right”. Lol.

She grew up with the concept that every girl should get married, and at the right age… (Nothing to do with finding the right person) whereas these stuff are secondary in my life. In exceptional circumstances, I might also be ready to compromise or make a commitment, but for me, my career & my freedom come first. I have still a long way to go. It’s just a beginning sweetie! :-)

Our best friend Roshni, who is also married by now & has a son, is almost lost these days. She comes in our contact like once in a blue moon. She appreciates my concept of living and what I am doing. We understand her situation; husband, kids, in-laws & job….but we miss her presence.

Inscribing about my gfs, my thoughts run decade back into the New Year Eve Celebration (Nepali New Year). We (Sanju, Roshni & I) had celebrated the Eve at Sanju’s place. The real party begun after her folks fell asleep. Every silly things we did were so funny, especially, calling one of our EX in the middle of the night to vent our anger to show him where he stands (sorry dude! whereva u are).

Tomorrow is our Nepali New Year Eve, Girls! I have ample reasons to reminisce our days. Wish you a very Happy and prosperous New Year 2068 (Baishak 2068 B.S) & all the happiness in your married life. I know both of you are proud of me & so am I. No doubt, you are great wives & loving moms.


No worries, I too will be on the league one day!! ;) ;)

Naya Barsha 2068 ko mangalmaya Subhakamana
(Nepali version of Happy New Year)



XOXO
Jo_tee




Sunday, April 10, 2011

Survival of the fittest- In a wrong way!


It’s getting hard to me to cope with some of the issues which are going around. I don’t give a shit(sorry for my expression), but I really feel like suffocated and helpless at some point because I see everyone suffering ‘coz of it.

Though I was aware of the consequences I fought for justice; I raised my voice for everyone’s dignity, but in the race of “survival of the fittest”, I was constantly proven wrong and left behind. I make no apologies for that.

How can people be so selfish? How can they humiliate others just to prove them superior??...... And sometime I think why I am expecting them to be humans. Why I am letting them rule my mind while my own issues are paramount right now.

Morality, they define in a different way, that changes with their every effort to save their heads, statements they spoke are unspoken, exploitation they resort to when they feel their own jobs are at stake, responsibilities they explain in their own words of brutality; and this fight no longer becomes a battle of truth; not a war to prove how wrong they are, but a struggle to prove how true I am. And, my inner voice says, they don’t deserve a fight, so I have now backed off; chosen to remain silent…not because I am defeated or I am weak, but I don’t want others to suffer though this battle is not my alone. I am swimming against the tides of humanity and dignity.

I hate this bureaucracy. I abhor this favoritism, but I have faith that one day everyone has to pay for what they do.

Well, bringing dirty laundry in public is not my concept of blogging; I just wanted to express what I have on my mind now (Human Rights- RIGHT TO EXPRESS).  

Anyway, God bless their souls!!


XOXO
Jo_tee

Monday, March 28, 2011

I still....


Back in Nepal, back to work and back to life.

I am still struggling to move on with my real life after a month long journey.

Sometime I feel like I am in a dream and would soon be awake. And, I have to get back to my scheduled placements, plan my lesson and be ready for debriefing in the evening at the balcony with my housemates.

JORDAN’s nearly perfect and funny Vietnamese accent still echoes in my ears. JENNIFER’s non-stop speedy talks still strike through my earphone. THERESE’s lively nature still make me feel oh dear you rock!! Love u all :)

Still feel like Qyun (our cook, I know am spelling out her name incorrect) gonna shout out “Dinner- Lunch” from downstairs. “Okay”…”Yeah Okay”- thumbs up!

I cried, laughed, shared and cared….Oh I lived wonderful 30 days of my life. Now, I have ample stories to tell my and my sister’s future kids. wink wink ;)

I know this is my first week back in Nepal and it would take little time to get back. Life is calling; I will remain occupied to make my way now. Sigh..

Love – Peace- Humanity.

XOXO
Jo_tee

Back in NEPAL with a dearest friend of mine, Sangeeta Karmacharya Shrestha



" I believe everything happens for a reason.
People change so you can learn how to let go.
Things go wrong, so that you can appreciate them when they're right.
You believe lies, so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, & sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."